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This is a drawing of an embryo-like chimera that embodies the martial Xingyi. I drew it after I came after the realization that I should draw what I like (or apply aesthetics to things I like), instead of trying to find the next big thing (something I’ve been doing for the past 20 years). I love how it came out, and I do plan on making an animation with the little guy.
Did this one after messing with Grok. I wasn’t going to post it at first, but the art troll in me was hungering for reactions, and this vid did not disappoint.
I’ll be posting more here, as the internet is going through it right now.
As I was rattling my brain, trying to think of what direction I should take my art in, I asked myself a question: “What is it about the anime you watch that pulls you in?” Once that was in my mind, the answer for all the anime I went out of my way to watch was the artstyle. That’s it. Rarely does story or plot come into the picture. But then my mind went to the key art of a lot of anime series, and I remembered one thing:
I always had background music playing in my head as I looked at something.
Ever since I was a little kid, art and music always had a special relationship with each other that was inseparable. I always had a color that I’d associate with a sound, like I’d associate a C major scale with the color blue, or E minor with red.
So, then I thought, “Why not base your art off of that? It’s the one thing that has been always consistent with you.” I found it. I found the one thing that gels with me. Or rather, it was always with me, and I was too distracted by social media and politics to notice.
I’ve done stuff like this before. “A Night With Kid Nimbus” is the biggest example of this.
I made this while I was listening to various funk, house, R&B, soul, and disco songs. I managed to capture the vibe of those songs very well. I would redraw this, but I felt like it would make the moment I captured years ago irrelevant.
This realization made me draw the picture at the start of this blog post. It was based off of a song by Groove Collective called “In Your Mind,” or rather, a section of a song that reminded me of a beach during a sunset. It was also a very relaxing part of the song, in which the lounging frog represented. Not sure why I chose a frog, but I think it’s because I subconsciously took cues from one of Vaughn Bode’s lizard characters, which makes sense, because Bode was prevalent in the 70s up until his death, and that section from “In Your Mind” sounds like it came from that decade.
So, yeah. I plan on doing more stuff like this. After all, I did say I’d make a return to my 2013 creativity.
In the foreseeable future, I will be moving away from NSFW and pornographic works. I’ll still draw thicc and voluptuous women, but it will not be the prime focus of my body of work going forward.
Why the change? Well, it’s for several reasons.
It wasn’t my first choice. I got into drawing because I always dreamed of making my own animated series, but things kinda got in the way early on, like being trapped in a retail job that I hated for nearly a decade. My purpose for drawing had shifted over the years. I only got into NSFW because of the artists I followed on Tumblr and Twitter had some pretty interesting styles, and plus I was already a pervert. But deep down, I had this feeling that something felt wrong about this whole thing. Like, it felt weird being a part of a subculture where the main focus was cartoon characters having extravagant sex and being outlandishly sexual. The weird and fucked-up fetishes didn’t help either. This was not what I signed up for.
The “praise” I get. Now, I understand people like my art, and for that, thank you. I appreciate all the support you guys give me, and I love that I have a fanbase. But, Jesus, some of you take it too far. Since 2020, I’ve had stalkers who won’t leave me alone. Stalkers who’ve hacked my website, and stalkers who use my email, pretending to be me. One of those stalkers literally filmed himself dancing to Dummythicc, do you know how INSANE that is? On top of that, I get people who routinely ask me about the Statue of Liberty, and then suggest I feature their fetishes in the next animation, as if I’m comfortable with that fetish to begin with. I always think back to this one quote I forgot the source of, but it goes like, “Porn addicts don’t really appreciate your art, they’re jacking off to it.” I’m paraphrasing, but not by much. All this because I draw cartoon women. I’m not even that good, and on top of that, I’ve had people admit they were attracted to my follower count. For fucks sake, there’s even an AI art model based on my style!
In 2020, I had a stream where I crashed out and shut down mentally because I felt like this hobby that I nurtured and cultivated wasn’t my hobby anymore. Since then, I’ve been losing motivation to draw, and I feel like I’m on my last leg with drawing. Everyday, I’ve been wondering when will I quit doing this. Hell, I don’t even do whole pieces anymore. I don’t even do studies anymore, I just pump it out, and I HATE it.
The straw that broke the camel’s back was when I got news that my younger brother was hit by a car, and was placed in ICU, due to cranial damage, and it made me super anxious. There was a fear that he would die, and I don’t know if I could handle that. All that was running through my head was the memories I had with him, as well as my family. Since I was a kid, I’ve been distancing myself from all of the people I knew, and it caught up to me after I heard the news. My cousin called me up, and after speaking about my brother, he asked me do I have a job. I told him that I stream my art, and he showed support for it. Thing is, I started to think about what my family would think of me if they saw my art. It’s bad enough that I’m pushing 40, and I haven’t done anything with my life, and here I am, drawing cartoon animals doing dirty stuff. So, this was a sign.
And that’s it. This year, I’m going back to my 2015 self in terms of art. Not sure what my art would be like going forward, but I do wanna show people what I’m capable of, and that includes my friends and family.
First, name change. I felt like “Monster Mayhem” was more of a working title, or a placeholder for the real name. A friend of mine came up with the name “Brave or Grave,” and it stuck. It’s the name of M. Bison’s theme in Street Fighter Alpha 3. So yeah.
Second, new character designs, or rather, colors.
Lastly, early game footage.
I made the sprite in Aseprite, and programmed the game using the Godot engine. The goal here is to work on both game design and the sprites at the same time (because I couldn’t imagine doing either or first).
I wanted to animate this sprite above, but I wasn’t sure of how. I was trying to figure out the size of the sprite in relation to the screen. This is where I learned the screen sizes of the Genesis, Saturn, and PS1, which had a screen res of 320×240 (max for Genesis).
I went for a sprite size around 48-58, animated it, and went from there. I will change the resolution later on, but that’s about it.
These are the four main bosses of Monster Mayhem, Gatling, Nurse Chiyo, Jacques, and Dr. Havoc. They each have their own stages, like in all of the Megaman games. I am debating on whether the stage order is linear, chosen, or random.
Okay, so I will be working on my first game soon. Its working title is “Monster Mayhem.”
The premise of the game is that it centers around the eponymous game show, where monsters battle each other in order to win huge amounts of money. But, since this is my first game, it will be an action platformer in the same vein of games like X-Men for the Sega Genesis and Astro Boy: The Omega Factor for the Gameboy Advance.
These will be the main playable characters, Gouma and Luna.
Gouma is the brawler type, utilizing close combat attacks, and charging attacks.
Luna is a psychokinetic, and while she lacks in physical power, her attacks are more on the ranged side.
And these are the hosts of Monster Mayhem, the eccentric Mr. Gold, and his lovely, fan-servicing Miss Silver.
I plan for the game to have 5 worlds, each having three stages, a boss stage, and a bonus stage, and I hope to get this done by the end of next year, alongside other projects I have coming down the pipeline.
I made another album, this time, actually mixing it from the stems of each song. It took a bit, but it’s done. Anyway, this is “Random Funk,” a techno album that features the weirder side of techno. Or at least, weird to me, since this style of techno didn’t sound like anything on the radio at the time I got into electronic music. I named it Random Funk because the majority of tracks were made with either royalty-free MIDI files, rearranged to fit the composition, me messing with my Korg SQ-64, and creating random, abstract rhythms, or both.
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