In the foreseeable future, I will be moving away from NSFW and pornographic works. I’ll still draw thicc and voluptuous women, but it will not be the prime focus of my body of work going forward.

Why the change? Well, it’s for several reasons.

1. It wasn’t my first choice. I got into drawing because I always dreamed of making my own animated series, but things kinda got in the way early on, like being trapped in a retail job that I hated for nearly a decade. My purpose for drawing had shifted over the years. I only got into NSFW because of the artists I followed on Tumblr and Twitter had some pretty interesting styles, and plus I was already a pervert. But deep down, I had this feeling that something felt wrong about this whole thing. Like, it felt weird being a part of a subculture where the main focus was cartoon characters having extravagant sex and being outlandishly sexual. The weird and fucked-up fetishes didn’t help either. This was not what I signed up for.
2. The “praise” I get. Now, I understand people like my art, and for that, thank you. I appreciate all the support you guys give me, and I love that I have a fanbase. But, Jesus, some of you take it too far. Since 2020, I’ve had stalkers who won’t leave me alone. Stalkers who’ve hacked my website, and stalkers who use my email, pretending to be me. One of those stalkers literally filmed himself dancing to Dummythicc, do you know how INSANE that is? On top of that, I get people who routinely ask me about the Statue of Liberty, and then suggest I feature their fetishes in the next animation, as if I’m comfortable with that fetish to begin with. I always think back to this one quote I forgot the source of, but it goes like, “Porn addicts don’t really appreciate your art, they’re jacking off to it.” I’m paraphrasing, but not by much. All this because I draw cartoon women. I’m not even that good, and on top of that, I’ve had people admit they were attracted to my follower count. For fucks sake, there’s even an AI art model based on my style!
3. In 2020, I had a stream where I crashed out and shut down mentally because I felt like this hobby that I nurtured and cultivated wasn’t my hobby anymore. Since then, I’ve been losing motivation to draw, and I feel like I’m on my last leg with drawing. Everyday, I’ve been wondering when will I quit doing this. Hell, I don’t even do whole pieces anymore. I don’t even do studies anymore, I just pump it out, and I HATE it.
4. The straw that broke the camel’s back was when I got news that my younger brother was hit by a car, and was placed in ICU, due to cranial damage, and it made me super anxious. There was a fear that he would die, and I don’t know if I could handle that. All that was running through my head was the memories I had with him, as well as my family. Since I was a kid, I’ve been distancing myself from all of the people I knew, and it caught up to me after I heard the news. My cousin called me up, and after speaking about my brother, he asked me do I have a job. I told him that I stream my art, and he showed support for it. Thing is, I started to think about what my family would think of me if they saw my art. It’s bad enough that I’m pushing 40, and I haven’t done anything with my life, and here I am, drawing cartoon animals doing dirty stuff. So, this was a sign.

And that’s it. This year, I’m going back to my 2015 self in terms of art. Not sure what my art would be like going forward, but I do wanna show people what I’m capable of, and that includes my friends and family.